Love or Money???
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
A toast to something new!!!
I was just complaining about life and GOD not hearing me when I received the news I been waiting on… I got accepted into Barry University and GOD IS AWESOME>>> AND HE IS NOT IGNORING ME!!!! So lets toast to something new, something better, something worth it!!!
Can I open my eyes yet???
For some odd reason my life is utterly ridiculous right now. Things are not panning out the way they should and honestly it would feel so much easier to give up. Life is not my friend, my car caught a fire, I had technical difficulties with my apartment and was forced to move home, my new job pay rate sucks, I owe my school $400 to pay for classes, my grades are not as great as usually, and to make it all worst I don’t have that love that makes all my bad worth while. I pray, pray, pray and it seems as if God, who I know can hear me, may be ignoring me. I hate to sound so hasty but this is how I feel. I am a little girl with my eyes tightly closed waiting on the bad movie scene to change asking a trusted adult “CAN I OPEN MY EYES YET?” I’m telling myself it’s ok it always gets better just be optimistic about it at least you have a job, a place to live, and you can always ask for a ride but I’ve always been a loner so my life hurts because I have to rely on others for help. God what are you trying to teach me this season? Can I learn this lesson efficiently so I never have to review this lesson again??? Can i open my eyes now?
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Decisions
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Random
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Read into this
1.)Hiding in Hip Hop-Terrance Dean
2.)The Collaborative Habit 'Life Lessons for Working Together"-Twyla Tharp with Kornbluth
3.)Hold Love Strong-Matthew Aaron Goodman
4.)Thelonious Monk-Robin D. G. Kelly
5.)Dead Above Ground-Jervey Tervalon
6.)Tarnished Beauty-Cecilia Samartian
7.)lETTERS TO YOUNG MAN-HILL HARPER
8.)In the Midnight Heat-Blair Underwood
9.)Through the Wire-Kanye West (IDK Y)
10.)32 Third Graders One Class Bunny-Phillip Dave
So I just got ten books for $8.56 and I'm so excited about each one. I can't wait to read them!!!! I had a book-gasm and also realized why I don't have many friends.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Just the Truth
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
My Hair, My Confidence, My Esteem
Sunday, August 1, 2010
The Big Chop
Monday, March 15, 2010
My Weekend
DAY 9 T D JAKE'S HOPE FOR EVERY MOMENT
I am God, and there is none like Me, declaring the end from the beginning, and from ancient times the things that are not yet done, saying, MY COUNSEL shall stand, and I will do all My Pleasure.
Isaiah 46:9b-10
I can't live my life knowing what will happen but I can refuse to die until some things come to pass. In my chase with destiny although I can't see the finish line and it's not clear to me who is standing waiting and cheering for me at the end I'll never stop running until I do. God has already said "she's mines" and adversities will pass but joy remains as long as endurance on my part and strength from the lord abides in my blood.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
T.D. Jakes 365 Hope For Every Moment Day 5
1 Peter 1:26
We did not need the blood only for when we cried out to the lord t come into our hearts by faith. On the contrary, we still need that same blood today. All our strength and nourishment and every promise and miracle must flow to us through the blood. It give us life from day to day!
WE have lost our teachings of the blood in this age of Pentecostalism. We have learned about the Spirit of God, but we failed to teach about the blood. Consequently, we have produced a generation of believers who are empowered by the Spirit but do not feel forgiven! They are operating in the gifts, but living in guilt!
The blood must be preached. Without it we have no life. Why are we wasting the power of God on the problems of our past? The blood has already totally destroyed past bondages that held us down! It was through the eternal bondages that held us down! It was through the eternal Spirit of God that Jesus was able to offer up His blood. There can be no Pentecost where the is no Passover!
Monday, March 8, 2010
The Things We Endure to Feel Love
This is who I Love, WHY???
Story of my love life. On the way there as I am calling saying I'm on the way he says OK I'll call you back I'm like "no I'm literally around the corner" he hangs up just in time for me to break down at a gas station as I'm calling him stuck and stranded in the dark he turns his phone off and I call his house phone just to learn he is not home. I think to myself this is who i love, why? My faithful god who told me to wait on him and i don't but he keeps a ram in the bush for when i don't listen anyhow. Case and Point, then a complete stranger comes up to me and gives me gas money and wipes my tears away. I'm calling Horhay completely hurt to realize he turned his phone off and in the middle of the night he text me the BS words:I'm sorry, I'm totally sorry and apologize 4 wat damage i have dun 2nite... Ur right absolutely rite... I love u, I love you. I know love is selfless so i can't help but think that he is lying no way love and selfish motives and thoughts abide in the same place. I wish I could hate him but God tells us to bless those who curse us and love them just the same. I know the bible talks about fools but it does not teach us to be a fool. I love Horhay but he only LOVED me. Weeping I endure tonight to find joy waiting in the morning.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
OK so I'm like DON'T EFFING CONTACT ME I'LL CONTACT YOU
"Lisa why you tripping? I'm just not sure what I want to do"
"Screw you Horhay Don't contact me anymore I'll contact you"
"What???"
"Don't effeing contact me I'll Contact you" and I hung up feeling so powerful
Well for starters my name is Lisa. If you want fairytale storys IDK what to tell you because my bloggs are strictly reality mixed with my feelings. I will spare no details not even the things that most people are to embarrassed to tell or talk about. Horhay is my on again off again lover for the past years. We are usually on but lately aka since i cheated he hasn't been the Horhay i fell in love with but yet and still I love him. Then I have my new to "associates" who are starting to grow on me Donny and Monroe. I so like Monroe but he dropped a big bomb on me he has mental health issues but I still like him so much although i'll probably go back to Horhay in a heartbeat. Oh when life unfolds you find a lot of shitty pampers and sticky situations that you just have to trust god to get you out of. Yes i text talk and i cuss and use god in the same sentence but he knows i love and trust him for everything. I pretty much a mess. A pretty young lady as lost as a possum, as dingy as a blond who dies her hair blonde with an e thinking it's a different color, as smart as scholar, witty, sacastic and plan clueless. Comment, Judge, Critique, give advice, just help it's all constructive!!!